Apostate.
Apostate begins as a personal reflection upon the experience of leaving my faith, followed by a series of portraits of ex-religious individuals and extracts from our conversations.
After days of fever-induced hallucinations, the church leaders came to pray for me, they thought the hallucinations were caused by the devil. I was 12 at the time. 
The site of my old Christian books, music and memorabilia store
My sister, Lizzie.
Trinity Church, Cheltenham
Headline from the daily mail, regarding the Vicar of my old Church. 
A member of the congregation tragically fell from a rooftop, the church said it was a miracle he survived, but I silently wondered why God left him paralysed.
Hari Parekh, Ex-Hindu“Leaving religion wasn’t really a decision at all, but a gradual, reluctant process – a blurring from belief to non-belief through a long and painful search for answers.”
Jordan Collver, Ex-Christian
Alexa Robertson, Ex-Catholic
Jordan Collver, Ex-Christian
Anonymous, Ex-Muslim
Jerina Begum, Ex-Muslim
“It took me years to alleviate unidentifiable feelings of guilt and a terrible inclination towards self-destruction, which I link back to the inadequacy that Catholicism placed within me, the feeling of encouraged self-sacrifice.”
Alexa Robertson, Ex-Catholic
Alexa Robertson, Ex-Catholic
Nick Ford, Ex-Jehovah’s Witness
Ian Clifford, Ex-Christian Pastor
“When I was 29 I faced the whole gay issue. I decided that I was gay, or bi, but that I would carry on with my vow of celibacy, which lasted 20 years. And I suppose then I became an adult, aged 42, I began to question what the church believes in. I’d ask my colleagues 'what will you do when a married gay couple comes to the church with children and want to become christian? Are you going to recommend they split up? Its going to become legal within the UK' and so on. I never got a concrete answer, but I could see all my friends getting married, and I started to feel lonely. You know, leadership is incredibly lonely. Within a commune of 60 or 70 people, there I am feeling alone...
...So I decided to leave. I had a meeting with 2 of the guys, who told me I was going straight to hell [laughs]. It took about a month to arrange the financial stuff, so I was still there with people knowing I was leaving. I left with the amount of money I gave in 20 years ago, no interest and no help other than that, and absolutely no idea what I was going to do. I went from living with 60 people to living on my own. I lost my job, I lost my house...”
Ian Clifford, Ex-Pastor
...So I decided to leave. I had a meeting with 2 of the guys, who told me I was going straight to hell [laughs]. It took about a month to arrange the financial stuff, so I was still there with people knowing I was leaving. I left with the amount of money I gave in 20 years ago, no interest and no help other than that, and absolutely no idea what I was going to do. I went from living with 60 people to living on my own. I lost my job, I lost my house...”
Ian Clifford, Ex-Pastor
Anonymous, Ex-Muslim
Clive Areude, Ex-Eucharistic Minister